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Patreon page!
I've launched my patreon page!
support me there and you'll get some extra goodies!
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See you there and warm blessings!
~Anko
mardi 14 juillet 2015
Illustration Friday: garden
In my garden,
The plants grow,
The flowers whisper,
And something's rumbling.
In the garden,
The grass moistens
The insects swish
But something's digging.
Come and look,
But don't look too close.
As in our garden,
Some things are better left alone.
dimanche 28 juin 2015
Life is Hard and Then You Die
Depressing as a title, right?
Well that's about how I feel now.
I've been slowly realizing that I won't probably live as a full time freelancer.
I've been trying to live the dream for years, working 48h/24 (well that felt like). All that I was thinking about was gaining more views on my website and more customers. And it worked for a while.
One day I realized I was exhausted, mentally and emotionally. I just couldn't do it anymore. The stress of not getting enough money took a toll on me.
Times are hard, especially when you're a parent. I don't know how other freelancers manage to do it but it was too much for me.
So I got a job. As a nurse (that's my second diploma after my illustrator one). Night shifts paid more and allowed me to see the kids. Then I got bored of this job and decided I had to go back to my medical roots, working in a NCIU. More stress, less sleep, more frustration at the end of the day.
In the meanwhile I realized that my art was fading away. I've always been very confident with my drawing skills. Of course I was, I've been drawing since I was 3!
Now I'm afraid my creativity's gone and I'm freaking out. I'm not a young adult anymore and could say I know pretty much how my drawing mechanisms work. It's never been that way, that long.
I'm suffering from a Profund White Sheet Syndrom. Due to a drastic lack of inspiration.
And I don't know if it will ever end.
Gosh life is hard....
And then you die.
Well that's about how I feel now.
I've been slowly realizing that I won't probably live as a full time freelancer.
I've been trying to live the dream for years, working 48h/24 (well that felt like). All that I was thinking about was gaining more views on my website and more customers. And it worked for a while.
One day I realized I was exhausted, mentally and emotionally. I just couldn't do it anymore. The stress of not getting enough money took a toll on me.
Times are hard, especially when you're a parent. I don't know how other freelancers manage to do it but it was too much for me.
So I got a job. As a nurse (that's my second diploma after my illustrator one). Night shifts paid more and allowed me to see the kids. Then I got bored of this job and decided I had to go back to my medical roots, working in a NCIU. More stress, less sleep, more frustration at the end of the day.
In the meanwhile I realized that my art was fading away. I've always been very confident with my drawing skills. Of course I was, I've been drawing since I was 3!
Now I'm afraid my creativity's gone and I'm freaking out. I'm not a young adult anymore and could say I know pretty much how my drawing mechanisms work. It's never been that way, that long.
I'm suffering from a Profund White Sheet Syndrom. Due to a drastic lack of inspiration.
And I don't know if it will ever end.
Gosh life is hard....
And then you die.
But I still love to listen to music, so I guess I'm not dead yet.
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